"I don't know what came over me"

He rarely fought with his friend, but obviously something had caused a rift between them because, they were exchanging words in angry bursts, his friend said something that hit really low, it was obvious the friend said it to hurt him, oh his heart pumped hard as he got infuriated, how could that have come out from his friend's mouth? He no longer saw a friend but an enemy, only an enemy would wound him this way, he searched frantically for something, anything, he just needed to retaliate desperately, so this guy (his friend) could feel the hurt too, so he could understand how angry he'd made him.... There! a knife on the stool, and before he knew it, gbam!!!!! The deed was done, he had stabbed his friend. 

His eyes are open now, he's not so angry anymore, now he can reason about what he has done and alas, he can't believe he was the one who did what he did, that's why you hear him repeating the lines.... "I don't know what came over me" because he is sincerely sure it must have been a force beyond him that pushed him to do it.

 "I don't know what came over me"

I'm wondering if David said this too, after the deed was done with Bathsheba (2Sam11:3-4)....."I don't know what came over me" or maybe his own was along the lines of "what was I thinking..." "How could I have done that?" Even with how much He Loved God, even with how much he knew what was right.......David still found himself in that situation.

Maybe that's why he always cried to God, "Search me Lord, and know my ways..... If there be any wicked way...."

There was a hidden wicked way of anger in that boy, a hidden or 'not so hidden' wicked way of lust after women in David. There might be a hidden wicked way of 'lust for money', 'pride/love for recognition' in you....or something else entirely that might not be mentioned.

When God works in a man, these are some of the things he's trying to help him with..... The hidden wicked ways....

As much as David loved God and was a man after God's heart, it still happened.....

It must have been a moment when he strayed from his place with God, because as we relate with God, He rubs on us and we start to look like Him, but there's a need for consistency. Any inconsistency is a foothold for the enemy, for David that little time of slack was enough, for the 'wicked' in him to manifest. GIANTS do fall.

We've heard of 'Men of God' who were caught in various acts of immorality, money things, sex things etc. They're already big and popular men, so it's a 'big and popular' shame. We could say they strayed away from God and we could also say it was about a 'hidden wickedness'. Nonetheless, there was a time when they weren't as big and popular, when they could have begged God to search them, to expose them to them, so they could pray, and even be delivered as necessary.

I've always said that, there's no evil on earth that a person who lacks Jesus cannot do, but even asides that..... We who have Jesus and love him, in this our journey with him in discipleship, there are things He'd want to point our attention to....

1. Who you are and the extent of what you can do: Truthfully, you don't know how far you can go in deed, if God doesn't show you. He's not impressed by your tongue-speaking self, nor is he persuaded by your ability to preach the Bible. He sees the YOU that you don't see, or anybody else for that matter. You can't know that you could be so jealous of somebody so much that you could actually wish some evil for them....you can't know until God shows you. Everybody likes to think they're good people, but if you can pray and beg God to show you who you are. When it happens, God will allow you to catch yourself in the act, because you've prayed for Him to show you. At this point, you will not deny it, you will not be defensive about it, but you will see it as a point you must be specific about in prayer and in action. 

2. Never think you're enough: Hey! See pit in your front....aha, take steps back and dodge it. May that spirit of thinking you've arrived as a Christian, the 'sin is beyond me' mentality, not catch you fha. When you allow God to check you, that's good. But you too, look inward. The Bible says, "Examine yourselves, whether ye be in Christ...." Take breaks to cast a look at yourself through the mirror of God's word. See YOU.

3. Stay in the truth of the word: Don't be looking for where you'd be pampered, where the truth is, is where you'd get knowledge and understanding and deliverance. Study the truth, listen to truth, meditate on the Truth.

4. Seek counsel: Sometimes you want to do everything alone, because it's your business abi. But if you can see that it's beyond you and what you can help yourself about, please talk to an elder in Christ... Do it fast before the thing embarrass you and it's no longer only your own business but everybody's.

Song of Songs 2:15

[15]Catch the foxes, the little foxes, before they ruin our vineyard in bloom.

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